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I'm still pondering the whole "control" thing. I have been so controlling and rebellious in my eating, refusing to submit, doing it my way, because it makes me feel good, yet destroying myself at the same time. I want to give up. I want to be the cowboy, throwing down my gun, putting my hands in the air. If only it were that easy! Maybe surrender will become a permanent habit in my life after I do it every day throughout the course of this study. I hope so. I long for the comfort that will come when I stop fighting and learn to relax in God's control.
Renee~Maybe surrender will become a permanent habit in my life after I do it every day throughout the course of this study.I've been feeling this way, too, but then I remembered this quote from the first day: Surrender is not a one-time thing; it is an ongoing process." (pg. 27) That was an ah-ha for me, to realize that surrender needs to be ongoing because the result is relationship with God. I need to keep surrendering because it sends me to God and that's where He wants me. I do think it will get easier with ongoing practice, though. More habit than the control and rebellion. I'm with you. It is so nice to be doing this with other people. : )
Journal: My true desire is the internal changes that I ask of God: freedom from cravings, being healthy, strong, awake and alive. But I also get excited when I think of the outside rewards, like wearing a size 10 pair of jeans. Insights: I do give up. I surrender to God to make me what I was created to be--beautiful inside and out. That was another insight for me--that God desires me to be beautiful. Becky, I loved the opening song. Did everyone notice that every picture, besides the praying hands was outdoors. I truly believe we need to be outdoors at least an hour a day. I also learned at my Weight Watchers meeting that you burn 300 calories standing for one hour. I think we sit too much. So,now I stand at the counter each time I am on my computer--no leaning now.
I can't imgaine how good I would feel if I spent an hour a day outside. I know I'm "creation deprived" but it is so hard for me to get outside of this house.
I keep thinking that if I figure out how to surrender in this area, then I will be able to surrender in other areas of my life as well. I am definately a control freak, so giving up control is hard to do. I am also trying not to be overly concerned with my outward appearnce. I still weigh my self daily, but only once a day. Becky-I usually weigh myself every time I walk by the scale too, your not alone. I have not taken measurements, which every time I begin a new diet I take measurements and I don't want to right now. My only overall goal so far is to lose 8lbs in 6 weeks. I think that is a very realistic goal.
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I'm still pondering the whole "control" thing. I have been so controlling and rebellious in my eating, refusing to submit, doing it my way, because it makes me feel good, yet destroying myself at the same time.
I want to give up. I want to be the cowboy, throwing down my gun, putting my hands in the air. If only it were that easy! Maybe surrender will become a permanent habit in my life after I do it every day throughout the course of this study. I hope so. I long for the comfort that will come when I stop fighting and learn to relax in God's control.
Renee~
Maybe surrender will become a permanent habit in my life after I do it every day throughout the course of this study.
I've been feeling this way, too, but then I remembered this quote from the first day:
Surrender is not a one-time thing; it is an ongoing process." (pg. 27)
That was an ah-ha for me, to realize that surrender needs to be ongoing because the result is relationship with God. I need to keep surrendering because it sends me to God and that's where He wants me. I do think it will get easier with ongoing practice, though. More habit than the control and rebellion.
I'm with you. It is so nice to be doing this with other people. : )
Journal: My true desire is the internal changes that I ask of God: freedom from cravings, being healthy, strong, awake and alive. But I also get excited when I think of the outside rewards, like wearing a size 10 pair of jeans. Insights: I do give up. I surrender to God to make me what I was created to be--beautiful inside and out. That was another insight for me--that God desires me to be beautiful. Becky, I loved the opening song. Did everyone notice that every picture, besides the praying hands was outdoors. I truly believe we need to be outdoors at least an hour a day. I also learned at my Weight Watchers meeting that you burn 300 calories standing for one hour. I think we sit too much. So,now I stand at the counter each time I am on my computer--no leaning now.
I can't imgaine how good I would feel if I spent an hour a day outside. I know I'm "creation deprived" but it is so hard for me to get outside of this house.
I keep thinking that if I figure out how to surrender in this area, then I will be able to surrender in other areas of my life as well. I am definately a control freak, so giving up control is hard to do.
I am also trying not to be overly concerned with my outward appearnce. I still weigh my self daily, but only once a day. Becky-I usually weigh myself every time I walk by the scale too, your not alone. I have not taken measurements, which every time I begin a new diet I take measurements and I don't want to right now. My only overall goal so far is to lose 8lbs in 6 weeks. I think that is a very realistic goal.
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