Thursday, October 30, 2008

Catching Back Up

This has been a tough week. The mastitis symptoms made me so sick. It was one of those times when I could have climbed in bed and stayed asleep until I was all better, but my mommy duties wouldn't let that happen.

Then yesterday, I was holding my baby and tried to stand up off the couch after feeding him. I hurt something in my back in the process and now I'm an invalid. : ) No more running for awhile. It hurts just to stand long enough to take a shower.

It has been depressing dealing with all of this and difficult to stay focused on my fitness and spiritual goals, let alone all the other stuff I'm supposed to be doing as a wife, mom, and homemaker. I need God's help to not turn to food to make me feel better. I think I'm on the mend now, so hopefully I'll make up for lost time.

I read Point of View: Day 4 "Expect A Miracle" today. I enjoyed it a lot. I am very much opposed to the "name it and claim it" or "prosperity doctrine" message, but I don't think that is what this is talking about at all. I really do think that deep down I lack faith that I can really win at this for long term. When I honestly examine my feelings, there is a lot of pessimism about my ability to lose weight and maintain that success.

I liked this quote:

I know it will take a miracle to keep me faithful to healthy eating and disciplined exercise- and that's exactly what I'm expecting! (pg. 65)

I want to keep thinking through today's journal questions about my heart's desire in the area of eating, nutrition, and fitness:

1. How will it feel when God has had his way in my life?
2. How will I be different?

Anyone answer those questions and gain some insight?

I was also curious what your plans are for handling all of the candy tomorrow and the days after? Do you have a plan? I think I'm going to tell myself that I need to say no to all candy this time and to remember that this is just a season of my life. There will be a time when I can have some again. Then I think well maybe I'll let myself have just one or two as a treat so I don't feel totally deprived and to practice moderation. What do you think- cold turkey, no candy this year, or set a limit and practice moderation?

2 comments:

Mom said...

You are way ahead of me, I am on day 2. How did you get so far ahead? I thought I was just one day behind. Anyway I don't want to do two a day to catch up, so I'll wait to comment on here when I get here. Don't forget everyone to come back and see me sometime, or I'll just be talking to myself. Becky--you're being tested. Stay strong with his power!

Anonymous said...

I am sorry to hear you are dealing with some sickness. I chronically turn to food to deal with frustration.. I know how tough it is.

I can answer this one...
1. How will it feel when God has had his way in my life? After my TurboKick class yesterday morning the song "Somewhere in the Sky" by Kutlass was on while driving home. It was perfect for the moment. I grabbed L out of the truck and danced and sang in the driveway. His way (for diet and fitness) is for me to be healthy and take care of myself... doing that made me feel SO joyful and thankful. I've decided on a "weigh-in Wednesday" approach. Before I stepped on the scale I prayed. Giving it all to Him felt great!

As far as candy goes.. I'm a believer in moderation. I'm calorie counting, so if there is room for it in the day... I'll partake!! Chocolate is a mood stabilizer for me. :)

I'll keep you in my prayers!

Marisa